out living in the world, march & april (two)

GUYS, LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL. I know I've been missing here and I keep making promises that I'll come back, but it's hard to record life when you're actually spending your days in the moment. I feel as though I always wrote these words, trying to find life in them, trying to create life in myself by recording them, and it never did it. I was still searching, blindly hoping that one day life would turn around, and you know what? I made it turn around. I wake up every morning and want to live in the moment, and be here. I laugh and I play. I read and I write again. I feel alive.

And I probably am beginning to sound like a broken record. So, just hang with me, and take the photographs above as proof that I am not sitting on my couch eating cookie dough, but living and being stoked on, well, everything.

l.shane

out living in the world, february & march (one)

I wasn't lying, guys. I really am out living in this world. I feel like this is the first time in my life that I'm actually tapping into that 'youth' thing that people told me I've had all along. I've been hanging out in pool halls, drinking wine in desert under the moon, spending time with friends that i love, GOING TO THE GYM, and just being happy. Like honestly guys, when have you seen me actually look this happy? It feels good. It feels damn good.

SHIT, I also got a new tattoo,

my little sister got 'to infinity'. We decided we were going to get them on our sister bonding trip on the long drive back from Colorado, and we actually did it. I'm so happy with it, now to get more. And, to find a new job, because Laura wants her damn nose pierced. Yeah, you heard me. I'm fucking wild.

l.shane

free,

SHIT, I'm sorry guys, I vanished. JUST WHEN I WAS DOING SO GOOD. Long, long, extremely long story short I'm home. See those mountains behind my friend and I? Those are desert mountains. California desert mountains. I am home, and I am happy to be home. I feel a sense of self, a sense of freedom, a sense of happiness. This is right, this is where I'm supposed to be.

I'm going to be back soon. I just might spend the next few days or weeks just having FUN. Be back soon.

l.shane

honesty corner, thirteen

Do you feel lost RIGHT NOW?

Get outside your head, and think about this moment you're in. Somewhere in this world, someone understand life, even if it's just for this moment. Someone is bypassing the bullshit, and has that feeling where you know the universe is there, and it's whole. Where you feel all the answers, and that naive optimism, that we all secretly thrive off of.

So, you're having a bad day today? Think of those people. Think of those moments in your life, and know that you'll be there again someday. One day you'll be there. Today is a bad day, a lost day, but they don't last. They NEVER last. Throw yourself into the universe, and into all the feelings of the cosmos and no, it won't always be like this. It will get better (not to sound like a teen infomercial). You have this. You understand this. Only in this moment are you doubting yourself. Just think, be you, and you're fine.

dancing with myself...

Did I dance with myself and turn on my timer? Well, yes, yes I did. I got a tripod for Christmas and do you expect it to go to waste!? Exactly. I hope your New Years was wonderful. Personally, I finally got internet at my humble home, which means I have no excuses to not actually, you know, write and be productive. My inner roots are there and just begging to be released, so just you wait. Things are about to change, and in an amazing way. I hope your new year started off wonderfully, and I hope you expect amazing things to come.

stay tuned,
l.shane

a new year is approaching...

I'm the queen of resolutions. The queen of using birthdays, and holidays as a chance to restart my world, but even though I'll write in circles about it, I've never really seen results. This year I'm taking all the power within myself to create my own results. I've come to a realization that was a long way coming, and that realization is this; I am a twenty-one year old woman and it is time to own up to who I am, and no longer let any excuse be good enough. This is my one and only life, and I will never be as young as I am in this moment in time. It is time to take everything into my own hands, to enjoy every moment and quit taking my life and my world for granted. It is time to live, and not just think about it.

I hope you all have a wonderful new years eve, and spend the time getting ridiculously silly while wearing sparkly dresses. I love you all. This new year is going to be kick ass.

l.shane

chriiiistmas at home (and while housesitting!)

MERRY LATE CHRISTMAS! Sorry, I've just been working, housesitting, and running around in circles in hopes that my head will soon reattach to my body. Here's to hoping that happens soon!

l.shane

missing persons,

Shit, I've been slacking. Give me a minute. Next week I'll be back to being annoyed, and back to being productive and inspired for Tea at Noon. It's just been a hectic week for my day job, and for my mentality. This growing into the woman I'm meant to be thing is not easy. Does it come easy for anyone?

See you next week,
l.shane

(HAVE A FANTASTIC WEEKEND!)

update, update, update (or rambles!)

I have had my little shop for a year and a half. When I started it I'm not sure I really realized the creative journey it would bring me on, and slightly on accident. This isn't a huge update, just a small update. I'm happy to say that even if I might not know the direction, I am growing into my own creative place in this world, and that is worth updating.

Thank you.

happy late thanksgiving, folks.

I know, I know, I'm late. Thanksgiving was TWO days ago. Yesterday I work for seventeen hours at my two day jobs, but I SURVIVED. I'm thankful that I survived. I'm thankful that my boyfriend can cook, because I can't. I'm thankful for my crazy family. I'm thankful for my basement apartment. I'm thankful that it feels like spring in Colorado right now. I'm thankful for this made up holiday, and wine.

stay tuned,
l.shane

daily life, peace out october

and this consists of; legitimately delicious french onion soup from a local french bakery, abandoned purple witch house from 1864 a block from our home, driving around on halloween screaming to flogging molly, got tired of seeing these tights on tumblr so i made them, amazing food at our local bar, the beautiful baby girl izzy who i get to baby sit and who enjoys dropping my necklace down my shirt only to retrieve it, and my amazin' man at his birthday dinner.

here's my past couple weeks. i'm not good at consistency.

stay tuned,
l.shane

not naked days, haallowweeen!

outfit details; sweater, free on side of street; scarf, sewmuchyarn; tights, cut up by me; boots, gojane.com

Yeah, I know Halloween was nearly a week ago. Yes, I know I didn't dress up. Instead, I spent the night with my amazing man on his twenty-second birthday. We spent it driving around screaming at the  top of our lungs to ska and rap that warms our hearts. I love this guy, a lot. And hey, at least my tights were festive! 

Stay tuned, 

l.shane

daily life, oh to be home

I cannot express how wonderful being home felt, with everyone whom I love so much. My mom and big brother are missing. Once the official 'wedding pictures' are done being edited, I'll have one with my brother. As for my mom, she would literally murder me if I posted one of her on here. She HATES pictures.

Hope your saturday is lovely.
l.shane

here we are now my friends,

The weekend was short, but wonderful. The wedding was beautiful, seeing my family warmed my heart more than I could imagine, and seeing my big brother cry as his beautiful bride walked down the isle will forever be a memory I refused to let go of. There is a lot that I could write, but after a missed flight and a day of traveling I am exhausted! I'll post soon, until then I leave you with a picture of my two favorite boys in the world. I am happy, and I am loved.

Stay tuned,

l.shane

HOME

It's finally here. Tomorrow I get to fly home with Ryan and go see my family (and a friend whom I miss!). Sure, it's only for three days, but I still get to be home, in California. I'm not sure I can really articulate how homesick I've been. It has gotten better, and I am really enjoying the temporary world we're building here, but the west coast just never quite quits calling my name.

I'm beyond excited to see my family, and my baby brother. Sneaking in a few drinks with a good, old friends will be so wonderful. It's a bummer that I  did not turn twenty-one back home, because I feel like part of me is missing out on all these wonderful memories that could be made. But tsk tsk! Mustn't think like that.

So tonight we will be hoping on a plane and arriving home, and then Saturday there is the wedding. The wedding is going to be extravagant. My big brother is marrying a woman that could not be more perfect for him. I'm really excited that she asked me to be in it, even though I'm so far away. It's going to be so beautiful, from the black wedding dress to the old, historic building in the heart of Los Angeles.

Now, I'm really afraid that I just won't want to get back on the plane. Maybe I'll just hide out in Los Angeles. I'm sure I could convince some pretty amazing people to do it with me. Are you guys down for the adventure?

stay tuned&have a wonderful weekend. greetings from the golden coast!
l.shane

life as of late, obviously autumn

I swear, one of these mornings I'm going to walk out to our little staircase and the leaves will have buried our little house. But really, it's so pretty I can't complain. With all of this gorgeous fall weather, new boots arriving in the mail, Ryan taking me to see 'Perks of Being a Wallflower', getting me a gorgeous potted orchid instead of flowers, and christmas lights up in the house - it's really becoming a wonderful month. Hope you're happy, as well.

Stay tuned,
l.shane

life as of late

 

stay tuned,
l.shane

daily rambles, october eleventh

I'm sitting here reminiscing that tomorrow will mark half a decade of being with Ryan, and how at twenty-one that concept seems bizarre, but magical. All I can think about is our first 'date', at sixteen, breaking into a middle school and running around like little kids, and how we're still those little kids, just odd grown up (and messed up) versions of those kids. I'm lucky to have this boy in my life, and I have sense the first text.

On another note, hopefully I'll be more active with Etsy next week. Some weeks I feel completely on top of it, then others my day job sucks the life out of me. So, fingers crossed for a successful week before I rush away to California for my big brother's wedding! (October 27th!)

I hope you all are having a wonderful week, and life, and fall.

l.shane

life as of late

1 | me and my uncle bucko a few years ago
2 | amazing saturday breakfast at a local cafe
3 | the boy at our chinese date before work
4 | autumn flavored beer (that was HORRIBLE)
5 | my man makes the best latte'
6 | a happy boy out for drinks
7 | .....and me.

there you have it! this is what i do besides work my little ass off.
l. shane