not naked days, button down skirts

I can't believe that the first month of the year is almost over. I know, I know, a month isn't that long, but  so many positive things have happened, that it went by so quick. There were so many positive moments within this much, so much growth. I know this is all mumbo jumbo to you, but it means a lot to me. It's going to be a damn good year.

l.shane

for the love of god, get me off gypsy warrior...

These items don't even need cutsey, 'try to be clever' descriptions. They are just amazing, all of them. I will willingly sign over my first born child to own them. All found, and drooled over, at Gypsy Warrior.

l.shane

not naked days, rosey and gold

outfit details; dress by american apparel, boots by gojane, belt from rue21, boot socks by buckle, jacket by forever 21, jewelry by Tea At Noon

I jump at every chance to wear clothes that you can wear in California, here. This is me jumping, not literally  jumping, but I'm sure you understand. As a side note, this is my natural hair. It's short and there is not very much of it. I really, really am in love with my extensions.

l.shane

finding the music, ten

let her go by passenger
The other night I had a strange breakthrough. To be honest, it felt like I was waking up. Nothing important was going on, in reality I think I was just on tumblr. My mind is never on what I am doing, so of course it was bouncing from thought to thought, not really having a meaning or purpose, and I thought of moment that took place seven years ago. 
I was sitting on a curb outside of some restaurant with my big brother and we were talking about the past, because I was fourteen and thinking I had committed something that was the end of the world (of course looking back now, it was a good experience), and he brought up the object of time. He told me that we can't see time. He even asked me where it was. He showed me that moments in the past don't exist. After all, can you really track them down? Can you visit them, physically? No, you can't. So, why do they have to exist at all? Why do you have to worry about something that happened, and yet there is no record of it?
For some reason, my mind igniting that memory, and those words from my brother, brought me back to life. I honestly feel like I was awaken from a slumber. I think I allowed myself to be asleep for the past two years. I let something define me, that has no right to define me. 
Thank you, Troy. I love you.
I feel awake, and I feel alive. I feel good, for the first time in a long time. 
stay tuned because it's about to get interesting, l.shane

basement life, two

So, I never take pictures of my house. Or, none that I post on the internet usually. Why? Because typically my house actually looks like someone lives in it. It's never picture perfect and everything does not have a special place. But, the other night I'm pretty sure that Ryan and I got taken over by aliens, because we ended up cleaning our apartment till the wee hours of the morning. Not just 'picking up and putting away', but scrubbing and organizing. Like you know those piles of STUFF that you mean to do something about, but you really just don't want to, we handled that stuff. More and more I'm like my mother. Her huge cleaning days always took place when she couldn't sleep, too.

So here it is. Where I live. In my basement. I like christmas lights.

stay tuned,
l.shane

honesty corner, my soul is aching...(fourteen)

Do you ever get that feeling where you truly need to be outside? The warm sunshine on your face, maybe a lovely cool breeze in the air, and being surrounded by trees so tall that you can barely see the top of them. To wander around the woods, whether they be familiar or not, or a park or not, and feel the earth, feel the silence. Bask in the silence.

I know the obvious solution is to go venture into the rockies that I live oh so close to, but when it's 3 degrees outside it seems daunting. I could drive up, and sit in my car, get out and freeze my ass off, but I'm not sure that sounds enjoyable. I"ll most likely end up doing it anyway. Why is it that I'm near one of the most beautiful mountain ranges in the United States and all I do is crave either a) a crappy forrest in the desert of California or b) the luscious green and fern ridden woods of the Pacific North West?

My sea legs and heart full of wanderlust may never be content.

food for thought,

would you rather have a) happiness and satisfaction, or b) love, passion and pleasure?

stay tuned,
l.shane

soulless features, pointless pretties...

one. since it appears i am always missing some fraction of home, this pillow is adorable and oh so fitting. or, to just have a string go to everywhere your heart has ever touched. adorable. source HERE

two. because i am always looking for new notebooks to add to my old lady collection. source HERE

three. my goal this year is to like my hair without my extensions in it. source HERE

four. i got one of these when i was in my brother's wedding in october, and oh my god. i had no idea when i put it in the water that it would explode into flower petals. i was dorkily amazed. source HERE

stay tuned,
l.shane

honesty corner, thirteen

Do you feel lost RIGHT NOW?

Get outside your head, and think about this moment you're in. Somewhere in this world, someone understand life, even if it's just for this moment. Someone is bypassing the bullshit, and has that feeling where you know the universe is there, and it's whole. Where you feel all the answers, and that naive optimism, that we all secretly thrive off of.

So, you're having a bad day today? Think of those people. Think of those moments in your life, and know that you'll be there again someday. One day you'll be there. Today is a bad day, a lost day, but they don't last. They NEVER last. Throw yourself into the universe, and into all the feelings of the cosmos and no, it won't always be like this. It will get better (not to sound like a teen infomercial). You have this. You understand this. Only in this moment are you doubting yourself. Just think, be you, and you're fine.

honesty corner, what i'm learning...

Growing up is fun, and immensely complicated, but everyday I'm learning these amazing new things as a woman, and a person, and an individual. Here are my two simple lessons that I've been applying to my everyday world,

- Be in the moment, because there is no where better to be than right here.

and,

- Never stop dreaming. Being a 'grown up' with a job and bills to pay is not a good enough excuse to not dream, and not chase those dreams. I'm learning that twenty one is not nearly as old as I thought it was, and how I let myself feel. I'm being young again, and with this complicated mind, that is a wonderful feat in itself.

Have an amazing weekend, and just BE.

not naked days, trailer backdrops

outfit details; jeans by american eagle, jacket by forever 21, beanie by american apparel, boots by gojane

Today was considered a 'warm' day at a whopping 36 degrees! Oh boy! What is even more sad, is it felt like a warmer day. Walks were much more enjoyable with shivering. I'm starting to think that I should have listened to my brother, just so my bum would not be freezing daily. Goodness gracious, I don't know how you midwesters do this EVERY DAMN YEAR. Oh, Californa, I hear you!

stay tuned, 

l.shane

finding the music, ten (oh, sweet nothin')

If the guitar in this song cannot make you fall in love, then I'm sorry but you're going to be living a very lonely life. This song calms my mind, and makes me think of late night lonesome drives where the world felt vast and my mind and soul felt whole. This song also helps me know that the time is coming where I will feel that way again. This entire soul searching thing is a trip. Listing and enjoy. stay tuned, l.shane

dancing with myself...

Did I dance with myself and turn on my timer? Well, yes, yes I did. I got a tripod for Christmas and do you expect it to go to waste!? Exactly. I hope your New Years was wonderful. Personally, I finally got internet at my humble home, which means I have no excuses to not actually, you know, write and be productive. My inner roots are there and just begging to be released, so just you wait. Things are about to change, and in an amazing way. I hope your new year started off wonderfully, and I hope you expect amazing things to come.

stay tuned,
l.shane