not naked days, proof that I am getting dressed!

SEE, even if I'm not getting my tripod out, I am getting dressed. I swear, and iPhone was a horrible idea for me. I take way too many 'selfies'. What can I say, I'm attracted to myself and I am not ashamed.

l.shane

it makes me nervous, writing tid bits

I want to write about you, but it has me nervous. There's something so casual about it all. That lack of concern of words that flow through my lips has me nervous. 

But then there's your lips, always sweetly touching mine. Touching me. Places that I forgot could be kissed. My hair. My forehead. My neck. 

I don't want these feelings, in all honesty. I could do well without them. I don't need to like someone. I don't need to share a bed with someone. I don't need arms around me. I don't need your lips on mine. I don't need anyone's lips on mine. 

But I like that yours are. I like that you want your lips to graze my body. I like that my jibber jabber gets smiles and sweet gazes. I like that you let me soak in the world, in the moment, and don't ask questions. I like that there's a hand there when I need it, and space when it's wanted. I like that you like me, but I don't like that I like you. It makes me nervous. 

It's being vulnerable. It's allowing myself to truly be unguarded. It's believing your words, and having hope that one morning you don't just change your mind right after I decide to let you in. I don't want you to have that power. I don't want anyone to have that power. I wasn't always like this, and now it makes me nervous. 

You make me nervous, but I think I like it. 

l.shane

out living in the world, march & april (two)

GUYS, LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL. I know I've been missing here and I keep making promises that I'll come back, but it's hard to record life when you're actually spending your days in the moment. I feel as though I always wrote these words, trying to find life in them, trying to create life in myself by recording them, and it never did it. I was still searching, blindly hoping that one day life would turn around, and you know what? I made it turn around. I wake up every morning and want to live in the moment, and be here. I laugh and I play. I read and I write again. I feel alive.

And I probably am beginning to sound like a broken record. So, just hang with me, and take the photographs above as proof that I am not sitting on my couch eating cookie dough, but living and being stoked on, well, everything.

l.shane

currently...

thinking about; being free, and enjoying every moment of it. the simplicity of changing one thing in my life, one thing i was scared of changing and how everything is falling into place. already my world is filled with more laughter, adventures, good vibes and good feelings than it has in years.

reading; The Time Travelers Wife, even though i couldn't tell you how many times i've already read it. it's a book i'm a addicted to, a book i write in, a book that i underline the words that cause me to feel alive, or love. if you haven't read it, you should. there's something about the honesty in the words that sparks a nerve in me. that inspires me.

listening to; my music tastes have been slightly, okay not slightly, they HAVE been everywhere lately. one minute I'm bumping Die Antword in my car, and day dreaming that i'm Yolandi Visser, to singing along to Hunter Hayes all while falling in love with that kid. So, I'm either an african bad ass, or a cute little country singer. depends on my mood, right? (and never forget the random rap remix music, or my go to acoustic...)

looking forward to; all my daydreams are in summer right now. the weather is truly warming up here in Southern California and i just can't wait for the adventures that summer brings. night time trips to the hot springs, camping on the beach, secret spots in the woods, natural water slides, nights you don't remember in the morning, the memories to be made (oh, the memories!), bon fires with far too much booze, and just those good nights, with those good conversations that only the desert can bring you.

watching; random things, to be honest. sometimes it will be stand up comedy, to the walking dead (which is over now...), to all the random chick flicks that my heart is aching for.

making me happy; the music coming through my speakers, the sound of my phone going off, waking up and knowing that i have no idea what's coming in the day but they are all good, night time desert adventures, things that are a little bit dangerous but that rush makes it worth it, sweet morning kisses, living with my best friend and having wonderful days even if we're both being bitchy. life is making me happy.

l.shane

not naked days, high waisted shorts and boots

outfit details; top given to me by my sister in law, boots by go jane, and high waisted shorts altered by myself but used to me my brothers

GOD, I LOVE LIVING IN CALIFORNIA. I'm even wearing this out for a night time adventure. It's a simple outfit, but I like it and I feel cute in it and that's all that matters.

l.shane

out living in the world, february & march (one)

I wasn't lying, guys. I really am out living in this world. I feel like this is the first time in my life that I'm actually tapping into that 'youth' thing that people told me I've had all along. I've been hanging out in pool halls, drinking wine in desert under the moon, spending time with friends that i love, GOING TO THE GYM, and just being happy. Like honestly guys, when have you seen me actually look this happy? It feels good. It feels damn good.

SHIT, I also got a new tattoo,

my little sister got 'to infinity'. We decided we were going to get them on our sister bonding trip on the long drive back from Colorado, and we actually did it. I'm so happy with it, now to get more. And, to find a new job, because Laura wants her damn nose pierced. Yeah, you heard me. I'm fucking wild.

l.shane

not naked days, leather and lazy

outfit details; jacket from forever twenty-one, jeans by levis, purse and shoes from target, vneck by hanes, buffalo tooth necklace by tea at noon

I'M BACK! I know, you've missed me, but I've been out and about. Being young and living. Just last night I spent the night on a desert adventure. You know how it goes, some wine, some music, the desert night sky; the nights that make you remember why you're here. But, here I am, back and posting. Back to being active, and jumping back into Tea at Noon. Damn, life just feels GOOD.

l.shane